Do you guys NOTICE??

Maybe you all doesn't notice...

Maybe you all don't know.......

Maybe you know a bit....

Do you all notice that all of us are ...

slowly slowly ...

splitting  or  not as close as before anymore...

The gap between everyone of us are getting further...

or 

Am I the only one think such ways??

If there are something that causes everything of this happens..

Is already happen!!

I know sometimes is hard to erase something that have happen...

Since we cant change the past..

Can we all try to make things better in the coming days??

I really really really scared...

that.

If this getting more serious...

It will turn to something awfull!!

 otokacho?@.@

Talkative VS Non-talkative

"Should I maintain my talkative-ness or should i keep my mouth shut starting from now?"

I have been thinking of this question for few days...
okay, for those who know me ..
u might wondering why I suddenly will ask a ques like tat rite?
It just recently, i have been hang out wit my frens .
On that day, i only sleep for few hours + hungry, which make me FREAKING tired to talk on that day..

Okay..
In short, that day i am very tired to talk ..
so i really keep my mouth shut and just listening to my frens talk..
and the prob is, I am sitting in the middle of everyone that time..
and they were keep continue talking non-stop all the time..
It kinda make my head spin a bit ~

During that time, I start to think the times before this..
i always talk non-stop wit my frens..
bcoz i really dun like the awkward-ness of SILENCE happen around me..
So, everytime I will try my best to crap alot ..
Now, I start to feel that is this good or bad??
Perhaps, I am too selfish which I only care about myself only ??
or I just dunno when to stop/start the communication??
Starting from now.. I really kinda doubt about everything I do now..

After that hang-out , i did discuss a bit my prob wit my frens..
He is always the quiet yet funny, acting cool guy..
So his conclusion for me, "just LISTEN" ~ is enough already ..
and I also think that, it is a one of a solution for me too.. rite?

So, should I remains my talkative-ness

or

be the type "just LISTEN " ???

* I only figured this out, when i switch the character on that time I hang out wit my frens ...

* Hope I am not too late to find out ..

Friendship ??

Another nite again, I stayed up until to the morn = /
Nothing to do.. jus go through some of my fens blog to check their recent post...
One of my friends blog post kinda interest me..
it writes about how is her friendship wit her friends..
the things that triggers me to write about this post is the content of her post, [ Catherine ]
she write about how her friends treats her..
As she wrote..
betrayers n fake friends..
this 2 simple words is already great enough to make me flash back of my past..

****
Somehow, I always think that my secondary school life is kinda make me phobia in trusting a ppl.
As a young n innocent pure teens last time..
I really wanted to trust the ppl around me!!
but I dunno whether I kinda too LUCKY..
I have seen how the cruelty, reality, fake, bitchy or even worse in the ppl around me..
I not trying to create any story to have any sympathy from others..
but that is the life i have been through..
When u meet those kind of ppl, especially in the same class tat time..
u really hav no choice to choose beside prepare urself to face any consequences/attack tat those kind of ppl put into u ...
starting u will feel depressed by the prob u facing,
but in the end..
i just have to stand up for my selves to fight for ourselves or we will be forever bully by those jerky ppl = /
and all those incidents happen in my past..
it totally have break my perception to fully believe in a ppl ...
slowly n slowly i have learn a ultimate tactic in my past.
which is I have learned to be " Two- Face" in my life..
To stay around the ppl in my past n also to protect myself from others....

****
Anyway that is the part of my dark past that sometime I hope I can erase it from my mind ..
but actually for today post, above is not all the main thing I wan to say..
I am not sure whether any DMS ppl will see or not..
For this post, I jus wan to tell u all ...

I , sometimes might be not really a good friends 
&  not always can help u all much when u guys have any trouble..
but I am really really grateful to have u guyz!! 
The time we know each other cant be say too long or too short..
but ..
this period of time we have know each others.. 
u guys always make me feel tat I have been protected which i nvr felt it before.. 
especially from my gang ^^
I cant say much,
I just wan to apologize ~
if I have did anything that brings trouble to u all 
or did anything tat offense u guyz ...

I really treasure the times we hang out together, spend together , crazy together, play together , crap together & many many things we do together!!!!

Hope we will stick together and never be apart and keep on create more & more "together" always ~

LUB U ALL !!! ♥

  p.s : ialsotreasuremysecondary/primaryfriendstoo.Iwillnotforgetuguys!Luvualltoo♥