*Lifeless*

Exam is over for quite some time..

Not really do great in the exam..

Really hope can get a good grades on it..

This month not really a good month..

My 2nd uncle enter hospital and in a critical condition..

The time my family visit him , he already be sent to CCU room..

As I know ,he been kept changing from CCu room to ICU room..

bcoz his condition getting critical from time to time..

his condition really scared all of my family and relatives..

bcoz from time to time the hospital call us to let us know to see him the last moment..

For the first time, me and family really in trauma..

we really dun wan to lose him..

he was a great uncle to me :(

For the first time we receive the call, says that he mayb cant get through it..

all of us really have made been ready and try to control our emotions..

thankfully my uncle pass through that day..and so was the second time..

For the third time we get the call..

me and my family have been staying at the hospital whole day ..

and we already know that he really will leave us for good..

bcoz his blood pressure was too low causes him cannot consume any medical or make any X-ray examintaions...

Untill now I still dunno wat kind of disease that cause my uncle pass away..

the time he pass away..

his whole body was swollen..

really hurtfull to see him swollen and his body is full of wire and tubes to keep him alive..

Indeed, the third time we receive the call.. on that day he hav pass away..

***Truthfully, the moment he pass away , i am sad to lose this uncle but i really cant drop a tear out from my eyes.. somehow like my the tears in my eye have all dried up..like no water supply to produce the tears : (

ONce he pass away.. we have to help with the funeral ceremony thing..

there is alot of thing to do in chinese funeral ceremony..

I will not going to talk about the procedure and bla bla bla ~

I will go straigh to the point ..

I have few night sleepless in the car and never shower.. : (

well, anyway i dun smell bad ( i think )

oh yea, about the last day of the ceremony.. my uncle family and his relatives (including me) have to walk around and around the coffin ...

During the ceremony,  there is a priest or "Nam Mo Lou" is there to run the ceremony..

we do according to what he say..

and we walk around the coffin..

Nearby the coffin there will be some ppl sitting there..

and while we walking around the coffin, there is some "crappy old Aunt" keep crapping the same thing once we pass thorugh here..

She keep saying" Why u all never cry "?? "why u all never cry"?? U ALL MUST CRY!!!! U ALL MUST CRY!!

and talk full of crap thing!!

Is not we dun wan to cry.. is my uncle condition we all hav know ..this not a sudden cases..

all the emotion we already have prepared..

why we all must act out cry infront of u all ..

Is just so fake unless if we cry my uncle will come back then is ok.. but this is not..

ppl already so sad already and trying to control our feeling..

this crappy auntie scream non stop for us to cry !!

Does cry will be better for the deceased ppl?

For me, is a torture for the deceased ppl if they saw their family crying for them..

it will make them hard to cross-over!!

Why cant we just let them go peacefully since we cant change the fact that they are gone??

This crying act will just be a burden to the deceased ppl!!!

I am goin to far now..

I should stop it here now..

Currently rotting at home while wating the college to start my SEM 2!! : )

English is Done !! 4 more to go !!

Today is the First day of my First Semester EXAMINATION!!

It was something new to all the Year 1 Student : )

Basically it was somehow just like our SPM EXAMINATION..

we have to bring in our student ID, Exam Slip..

               NO electronic devices allow to bring in to the HALL ..

There is a lot of rules that we have to follow before we start our exam..

and..

we have to fill up an attendance form, our  answer booklet

All of this has remind me a advertisement ~

     " Pls fill in the form  A, B, C, D,.........Z" if we wan to do something ~

All of us are pretty blur once we enter to the hall..

First, we don't know where to seat...

Then, the form we have to fill in is really need to a lot of stuff..

Especially our index number,

   eg; if ur index number is A1234DMS , u have to write A ONE TWO THREE FOUR DMS

Oh yea, forget to mention today exam subject is English Language

For me, it was neither hard nor easy..

it was only ok ok *i think*

For the essay part , i choose to write a narrative essay : )

I change the story to be a very dramatic story ...

which is i say the main character was pregnant, the father was angry, want to abort her child and bla bla bla ~

I really crap alot until I can write 3 page full with craps :XP

But what is done is done right??
So , I dun think  I should bother anymore ..

Juz hope I can get a good marks wit my crappy essay : )

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After the test is over,

ME and Kah Mun stay at the college library to revise our Hubungan Etnik...

we met Catherine and Wayna while we looking for places to seat..

we sit for while and hav a little chit chat ~

then read for a while ~

Then we revise our note for few hours ~

but after i have revise for 2 hours ...

My head is slowly and slowly lying down to the table..

once my head reach the table..

I have sleep for more than an hours :P

In the end, today revision was not really succesful ..

bcoz i never manage to read all my notes..

only manage to cover 2 chapter only : (

Today,  i feel quite cold when i taking my nap in the library..
At that moment..
When i feel very cold...
I just hope that I have a another half come near me
to give me a hug or even a touch   : )
I want to feel the warm from my another half..
But in the reality ..
I dont even have one ~
So, I just have to hug and rub my skin for a while to warm up the heat in my body :(

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After my revision,

me and kah mun go home together..

on the way home..

we bought some waffles ...

and curi curi eat in the LRT : )

While I was enjoying my yummy waffles ~

Kavi give me a call ..

and he ask me to lend him money

as he say he dun have money to buy the LRT  ticket to go home ~

Then I was foolishly wait for him at the LRT station

and

sit at the station there like a beggar wit Kah MUn..

while waiting for that KAVI..

When he reach, Chee Keong following behind him ..

then we go to buy LRT ticket to go home ..

and do u know HOW MUCH THAT KAVI LEND MONEY FROM ME???
HE ONLY LEND 10 CENTS from me only!!!!!!!

I wait for almost half hours...

and he tell me he dun have enough money to go home,

but later  he take out a RM 10 from his wallet <<<< Is this called money not enough??

Anyway i think is worth to wait for them bcoz later we had some good chat in the LRT : )

DELETE = KILL

It's been a while..
I think I have to broke my promise as I say
my next update will be my 1st time with my college friends..

I really cant find my interest to write lately ..
The main reason is I am too lazy to write and my
First Semester Examination is around the corner....

Anyway today I really not satisfied on something ~
which is there is someone need me to delete the pic that i have
post to the internet ..
At first i really not bother to the ppl who want me to delete my pic..
I was thinking that if i insist to not delete the pic , he cant do anything to me ..
but later on..
when i think twice, that freaking ppl might not come to disturb me ..
but he might buzzing around to the ppl around me..
that is wat i dun like : (

*To the friends around me , I have to delete the pic that i post on the net ...

when i marking out the pic that i have to delete ..
my hatred to that freaking person is getting more and more !!!!!
I really wan to F*** and cursed ppl at this moment!!!!!!
bcoz i really love pic, and delete it seems like i kill a living ppl ..
IT really really tear my heart apart :(